Mon, Apr. 17th, 2006, 08:53 pm
There is ALLOT of Junk in this journal, But I don't have the time, or willing-ness, to get rid of it.
So... I guess it stays until I find one that's really bad and I just NEED to get rid of it.
Sat, Jan. 7th, 2006, 07:12 pm
This journal is dead.
anything wrtten in it can be considered hersay.
Thu, Sep. 29th, 2005, 04:32 pm
I've been Downgraded.
It's my Birthday.
What a terrible Week for a Birthday.
and Yet I have that stupid personality of mine.
I'll never be sad,
I'll never be BrokenHearted.
Life's too short to give time to negative emotions.
I've given too much to them allready.
Fri, Sep. 16th, 2005, 12:42 am
Sex, outside of marraige. Destroys.
Wed, Sep. 14th, 2005, 08:32 pm
Damnit, I need to Move to Florida.
Tue, Sep. 6th, 2005, 03:06 pm
I think, If I just knew the notes.
I could write songs, Sing them, and set up the right Instruments for them...
I'd make a killing.
Cause, I mean, You wouldn't hear the kind of music I'd play from anyone else, It'd be entirely unique, a crushing of all genras, music radio stations would have no idea where to place me.
I'd be downloaded by millions.
I'll Let her know.
She can Either Have me, Or Not have me, Those are her only choices.
Fri, Sep. 2nd, 2005, 12:51 am
The idea of Ruining one's witness, Falling from the Faith, Destorying one's life, and makeing a total fool out of ones self.
Started with the intention, that when turned back to Christ, because a return to Christ is planned, There with be an awsome testamony to give.
So what kind of ministry is a ministry built on someones testamony, about how Christ pulled someone out of sin and put him back in a good and holy place?
That kind of ministry, plainly, it's too wonderful at all...
Imagine a man who's been addicted to pornography from the age of ten, Grew up in a christian home, "fought" deamons of sextual sin his entire life, and had sex at the age of eighteen for the first time... then in a years time did an insaine spin. After attending a College that was Christ-Centered and focused on raiseing up strong Christians to go into Christian Service and ministry... instead of Going into Work for Christ, this Guy, Goes into Acting.
But nto any acting, Acting in Pornography... so more of a performance then anything else... He justifys his actions by claiming that God gave him no gifts except that for pleaseing Women, and for endurance in the bedroom, He get's rich off of being one of the few males who can "perform" on camera. And Then he "realizes" that his ways are sinful, Flees from Pornography, Back to Christ, and Starts a ministry Warning against the Vial pit called "sextual Sin" And one of hte cornerstones of his ministry is the fact that he was a Sextual being from the age of six, whom lacked self-control.
Ok, now imagine that, That's what he planned from the beginning. That while in the Bible college, he decided to Make a total mes of his life so that he'd have a testamony worth telling. That this Guy, intended to be a soldier for Christ by falling away from Christ First.
Would it work? If noone knew that was his intentions and plans, maybe. Maybe some would hear his testamony, understand his plees that they not only find salvation in Christ, but lay important foundational block of Christ in thier lives.
I don't know, Sounds like a pretty bad idea.
Out of curiousity, anyone know of a pornographer who converted from whatever he was to the Christian Faith? and Gave up his Carreer because he realized it was Evil?
I'd like to find one, I think it'd be an interesting story.
Wed, Aug. 31st, 2005, 01:18 am
I've been hurting feelings.
I've been Craving anger.
There's something welling up inside myself that is disturbing me.
What is it? Not sure. Some guesses, but only I know those.
I want to be part of a Bible Study this week, but I failed to Call Jason to find out when and where they are, I'll have to do that tomarrow.
But I don't have his phone number.
I feel like doing something drastic.
I need it to rain and Thunder so I can go outside and play in the thunderstorm, I just wish someone would join me.
Drastic, Like Pounding Andrew into the Ground... He's the only person I know that deserves being beaten to a pulp.
Or, Dramatic, Like... actaully I can't say that here. But I know what it is.
I want to sing.
And I think I will, I just hope that tomarrow is a day that She's out of her dorm when I call.
"That funny guy called again, but this time he sang Frankie Valli..." -Her roommate
Sun, Aug. 28th, 2005, 04:25 pm
What to do, when there's nothing to do?